Letter to My Brother

LETTER TO MY BROTHER

As the year ends,
I am 1000 miles away from you;
I heard the news that made our tears shed,
Yet I said, tomorrow’s start of something new.

You might not know how important you are,
Hearing negative murmurs from people that sucks…
Have hurt you and made you forgot, here we are…
Waiting, willing to listen,catch you if you fall.

Light is at reach, look inside you,
You got the strength you never thought you have,
Despite the strong words they threw you,
Remember the people behind your back.

They’ll stand behind you no matter what,
Loves you unconditionally whatever happens,
And you should never forget that.
You are a good man, brother… You Are.

Don’t make their words affect you,
You’re worth more than they thought,
And you know it, you just got to believe it.

You got hurt because you gave importance to them,
More than you did to yourself,
But you were wrong, and you now know it…
Prove them wrong, let your stars shine this time…

Rise from the pains it caused you,
Don’t just falter and give up,
Carry yourself up, and live your life…
You got everything they don’t have.

Have you realize why they are doing this to you?
Because you have everything they always wanted to.
You got it all that they have to worked hard before getting it,
Yet after all, they can’t still have it.

They want to see you fall and make you miserable,
And if they succeed, they will feel better than you.
Don’t let them succeed, brother. Don’t let them do.
Fight. Get-up. Win the battle you didn’t wish to start.
Finish what they’ve started with victory and triumph.

Contemplating on Life

Reminiscing, contemplating on life how terrible things happened to me in the past…I remember one sad night that I never wanna live, pleading God to take me, as I’ve pleaded hundred of times to stop terrible things that keeps hurting me to come.  It didn’t happen.  I asked so many questions, still unanswered.  I asked myself that night knowing everything will come to an end, “when everything is over, will I want to die still?”…it was unbearable that during those dark times, TIME doesn’t seem to move.

Time during those moments felt like you’re trapped in a quicksand, yet you found a way to get out, it feels like impossible to get out, it keeps pulling you down, draining your emotions, making you feel every single emotions you can feel.  I kept contemplating on life I have, I asked an elder friend who was stand like my second father, Ronnie Cantos… ‘Why it doesn’t stop? Why tragedy after another?‘, and he replied, ‘it’s coming to an end soon, because its pouring’…it made me cry, from that simple answer, it overwhelmed me…and a slight hope came out of me, wanting to be out of all those.

Now, I am here…looking back at that night when I asked myself if I still wanna die when I get out of that situation?  My answer now is, NO.  My life has been a real life roller coaster, a story from a movie that you thought is just a fiction but it happened to me. It happens in reality…and teach you to see a lot of things you’ve never seen. Contemplating on life I have at the moment, I know now the answers to my questions if not all.  It lies within us, we just have to learn accept it, and we will be free.

Filipino Tula, Filipino Tula, Filipino Tula…

How come not many Tula(s) /poems come of of the Philippines? I am not much of a Tula writer myself, however I like to read some nice ones every now and then.. If you are unsure of what a Tula is it is the Filipino word for poem or poetry… Ahhh…

Are many Filipinos into Peoms or Tula?

Personally myself I was hoping a lot would like Tula, but it appears there is not many famous poets in the Philippines. Like I was saying to a friend of mine, I don’t really get into poetry but he remarked heaps of his friends do, he does and he is a westerner from Australia… hmmm… Maybe Filipinos do not like it so much, I don’t know…?

Readers do you know any good Tula..?

I wanted to ask my readers if they know of any good Tula or if you have written any good poems yourself. If so feel free to post them below in the comments section… It would be good to hear some good Filipino feedback…

If So Comment the Tula / Poem Below..?

Deeper Glimpse of Me

As the year 2008 near its end, I want to look back and see once again what this year had offered me, what I’ve learned from life. Not only this year but also from the experiences throughout the years I have lived. What it mold me, what I have become from all of it. I wanna share a deeper glimpse of me, understand where I am coming from…Here’s how I tell my entire story in just a glimpse.

Deeper Glimpse of Me

I was a quiet obedient daughter of a strict and loving parents though without their presence I was a stubborn, strong-willed, brave, funny classmate and student for some. In the working world, I was once the sweet hardworking righteous girl who cries if anything seems so wrong…Though fragile my emotions were I longed for more, I conquered the unknown, the sea, and its beyond… Storms washed me towards the shore of the unfamiliar land… Though my fear was soaring, I had my courage I didn’t believe I have, I went on. I learned how those people live, talk, play, but it seems like I didn’t belong there… People kept wounding me as I kept my calm and just wept, but as I saw it happening, they never wanna stop! And I had to stop them, I fought! And even thought I was mean to, yet I continued to be one because I thought I wasn’t born to cry forever… As time passed, they knew where they should be on me, however, my heart asks for more… I thought I knew what she wants, my heart was filled with unexplainable happiness, and I waited for the words be done. For another time my heart felt alone, it fell from the hands of someone whom I let, take it beyond the shore. I wept and hurt, but I’m determined to get up. Nowhere I was going but now I know where I’m heading… Guide I thought left me, lit up the road where I should be… My pride was washed away by the storms, and the waters drowned my airs… It is now “THE NEW OLD ME”. I learned I needed that to discover myself, so that I will learn how to share the ME inside the shining box. I have to leave the box where I kept myself for a long a time, but I will always keep it and remember how life used to be, what it taught me, and how it is a part of being the new old me. I set my foot forward and be greatful of how wonderful things are after the dark… Confusing life may be, but remember, that “Stars shine its best in the darkest of night”.

What’s Your Christmas Wish?

Christmas is coming.  My favorite time of the year.  Why?  It’s just the season has something that spreads solemnity to people.  It’s like everyone becomes extra nice, everyone thinks of giving gifts and helping others.  we know it can happen everyday if we want to, but in reality, extra good spirit comes out every Christmas season….sigh…

No need to worry, it is coming.  Just feel the goodness season brings.  They said its only for children, I believe not.  So when kids start to plan what will be their Christmas wish, we can have ours too. Most kids wish for toys, material stuff, preparing to hang socks on the window or fireplace wishing Santa would grant their wishes.  My Christmas Wish?  I wish my brother and sister will realize things for the future.  My wish is for them to have a great future, and I know they will. 

What about you? What’s your Christmas wish?